I am REALLY TIRED of this fucking fallacy that you cannot be a strong dedicated feminist AND a submissive at the same time THEY ARE NOT MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE KIDS the whole point of feminism is equality for people to CHOOSE what they want to do/be in life and submissives are CHOOSING to submit to someone that is the DEFINITION OF FEMINISM. I am not any less of a feminist because I submit to Adam and have rules and punishments and etc etc and if you think that I am then I do not want to be friends with you I am not even joking.
Today mostly sucked. Ex-roomie threw her house key at my fucking head and called me a “huge slut” (which lol at that, because I’m not ashamed of my sex life) and started a massive fight before finally leaving. I’m stressed, but there’s good beer and a quiet house. And there was ham for dinner. Job hunting went ok, I guess. I have three paper applications to turn in tomorrow, and did one online and those are for the actively hiring places. I have four more to fill out and turn in just in case they start hiring.
But today sucked.
And I need the people who give a shit about me and Him to send me/us good will/well wishes/positive thoughts/prayers/whatever your bag is that I get hired soon and we don’t fail.
"Funny, that no matter where you are in the world, there’s always someone eager to help you destroy yourself."
Getting all your shit done even when you’ve thrown up from back pain.
What have I done today?
- Showered
- Bathed Kong
- Towel dried Kong
- Cleaned the litter box
- Swept the entire bathroom
- Put laundry up
- Sprayed the room with flea killer
- Made the bed
- Washed the dishes
- Cleaned the sink
- Bathed Momo (the kitchen sink made that SO much easier)
- Towel dried Momo
- Sprayed the living room/couch with flea killer
- Sorted the dirty laundry
And later, I still have to make dinner. And yea, my back is killing me (mostly PMS), but I still don’t hate or want to stop doing the things I am supposed to do because at the end of the day, knowing that it makes Adam’s life easier because He doesn’t have to come home to a dirty house, or flea ridden animals, or dirty dishes, or eat fast food all the time makes it SO worth it. I love my life and all that it is now. Adam’s given me the opportunity to do what I have always wanted to do—be a housewife—and it’s given me so much mental stability and happiness. Yea, I want a job. But He’s not worried about me getting one. He knows I’m trying and that is god enough for Him. He is such a support system for me and has given me such a wonderful life.
And I don’t want to skip over my friends—There was a long time in my life where I didn’t feel like I could actually rely on anyone, but I have an amazing group of people in my life now. Yea, some of them are pretty damn far away from me—even in ENGLAND (lookin at you RooRoo), in Canada, scattered across the States—but the fact is that people that I’ve never met face to face treat me better than some people who claimed to love me ever, ever did. I’ve got a great support system of people that I couldn’t imagine not having around. Fuck anyone who says you can’t make true friends on the internet, they’ve never met you guys or seen the amount of betrayal and lies and heartbreak I went through and the amount of joy and peace I have now.
And my family. Holy shit, I couldn’t ask for a better family. Talk about number one fans. I am well aware that there are things about my life and my choices that my family may not be THRILLED with, but they SUPPORT me as long as it’s safe and makes me happy. And they have accepted Adam into the family with no questions. They adore Him almost as much as I do and that’s so so important to me.
All of you have saved my life and made it into something I never thought I’d have. If you ever feel unappreciated, remember this post, remember these words: From the bottom of my heart, I wouldn’t be here if not for the lot of you amazing fucking people. Thank you all for everything, big and small, and for giving me the courage to be myself and live my life how it makes me happy. Thank you all for finally showing me that if I live to make myself happy, then the people who genuinely love me will be happy too. I’m no longer living to shove myself into a box to make anyone else happy.
I love you all.
I hope you die i hope you die i hope you die i hope you die.
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Then I gave Adam a 45 minute blowjob Thursday afternoon and made it way worse.
My mouth is fucking killing me now. Like opening it halfway makes it hurt, and opening it all the way makes my jaw pop and my whole face burn.
Nothing in the world is worse than mouth pain, physically. I hate it SO FUCKING MUCH. I just want to wake up and feel better. =[
Going to take half a lortab to deal with this shit.
If you wanna talk about me, or my relationship, feel free.
No, I’m serious. I don’t have an issue with it. All I ask is that no one makes up lies, because honestly, my life is interesting enough without making shit up. Anyone that really knows my life knows the truth of that. Hell, if I were on the outside of it, I’d discuss it like mad too. But just don’t lie or make shit up. I promise there’s enough to talk about without doing either of those things. If you can’t think of anything to talk about, ask me. I’ll provide you with something juicy. I promise.
Love,
Ali.
I’m taking us to Olive Garden, and then He’s taking us to see The Dark Knight Rises! In a year and half of being together, we have never been to the movies just us as a couple. Odd, right? We both agreed when we first started talking/dating that we thought it was ridiculous to go to a movie to try to get to know someone. How the fuck can you get to know someone at a MOVIE?
Anyways, I’m really excited. :D MAYBE PICTURES?????? ;)
